Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Im in the Crisis

I might be in the greatest crisis so far in my life. This May will be my 5th year in Dubai and I don’t get any sense from it.

I am still a bellboy. No salary increase, no promotion, tips are getting lower and lower each day. I get jealous of all my batch mates who are now doing well. My pride is killing me.

My family still dependent on my support and I don’t see any help from them in return. My brother whom I send for 4 years in college gets married and had a baby girl. What more disappointing is he and his wife are staying in my Mom’s house.

The material things that I bought intended for my family were pawned, other were send to my older brother’s house in exchange of an amount of money (lesser the value at far) which was used for the hospitalization of my nephew. My mother doesn’t even bother to tell me.

My youngest brother whom I send in school for 2 years now is asking money as if I get it very easily. His need is endless. He email me for his project deadlines and financial requirements, he don’t even give me updates of how his study is going on.

My social life is so low. It’s my choice because I don’t want to spend. I don’t go out with friends because automatically, expense will follow. And my family especially my mom is thinking that I always go out for party.

I’m in the crossroad now. Staying in Dubai might be the best option as of now but staying in the company where I am currently employed is not. I have to do something. I have to move on, I should grow.

God help me….

1 comment:

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